Q. What was your religious background before you became a Fahamme?

I was raised in the church for most of my childhood and adolescence. My mother made sure that my sister and I went to church every Sunday. I was taught that the Bible was the word of God and that Jesus of Nazareth was the Christ. God's son who came and died on the cross for my sins.

I was told that if I accepted him as my lord and saviour and repented of my sins that I would go to Heaven when I died. I was taught that Hell was a place of burning, torture, torment, agony and sadness forever and ever without end. This is where all those who did not accept Jesus Christ ended up after they died.

Naturally,I did not want to burn in hell for all eternity. I wanted to to go to Heaven with its golden streets and irridescent palaces. I wanted to be in a place of light and peace and not the other place.

When I encountered those who had religious beliefs that were not like my Christian beliefs, I always thought in my mind that they were being misled by Satan and that they would end up in Hell when they died, if they did not believe in Jesus as I did.(Even though I wasn't a very good Christian, because there were many things that I did that were contrary to my beliefs.)

Q. What was it that made me want to be a Fahamme?

Well, the questioning of my beliefs in the Christian faith had their first start in January of 1998. An organization at my high school had a lock-in at a community YMCA. It was there that I got a tarot reading done on me. The woman who did the reading was a small, middle-aged Hindi woman. This reading was done with a deck of bicycle cards. This woman told me three things that were going to happen to me in the months to come. One of them was that I would be coming into money, she then informed me that I would be involved in a car accident and that I should be careful when riding in cars. This woman then told me that I was going to meet a young lady with light skin and that she liked me. At the time, I didn't believe the woman, and for awhile felt guilty.

Q. Why did you feel guilty about that?

A. Consulting a soothsayer was considered "demonic" and "satanic" let alone believing.

Q. Did any of those things in your Tarot readign come true?

A. Yes, In March of 1998, I got my tax refund and began dating a light skinned young lady and got in a car accident. It was then that I became frightened and it made me realize that there was more to the world. (forces of the seen and unseen) than what I was taught.

Q. The events made you curious about other beliefs how did you begin to learn about them?

A. Well, I still clung to my Christian beliefs. Around October or November of 1999, I began talking to a friend about spirituality, religion and philosophy.

She began presenting views to me that were so much against all that I was taught. This was when she began talking to me about a belief known as Fahamme. When she said the name, I thought that she was making the name up and the name did sound really funny to me. She then began talking about a man who was a prophet for the black man. My mind fought with what she was telling me for this was against my Chiristian upbringing.

She invited me to her temple for a couple of Sundays after that. I then told her thanks, but, no thanks. But at this point there again was doubt in the Christian faith that I once had. I told those whom I trusted how I felt. They just told me to pray to God and he will give me the answer. But then I wasn't sure of which God to pray to and which holy book to believe in.

Then I was visited by two Mormon missionaries. These missionaries, helped learn about the Book of Mormon and the Bible. I began attending church with them and studying their literature. This helped restore my faith in Jesus Christ. I eventually was baptized into the church and I began doing all research on the religion. There were doctrines that I had not known about and after that, I stopped attending the LDS(Ladder Day Saints)church.

Q. What doctorines made you leave LDS?

A. I left for several reasons.

1)I could not deal with the fact you had to be
interviewed to go to their temple. This interview was used to determine one's "worthiness." If you did not prove your worthiness you could not enter the temple.And this temple was supposedly used to help one to go to the highest kingdom in the afterlife.

Weddings were performed in this temple and if the family member was non-lds, or did not go through the interview, they could not attend. I did not like the thought of that.

2) I did not like how in order to find if the book of mormon was true you had to pray about it without any facts but your faith without any facts to back it up.

3) In my research I discovered that this religion at one time was very, very anti-black. It wasn't until 1978 that blacks were allowed the full benefits of being Lds. So I couldn't very well be part of a belief system that at one time made me inferior for 150 years and then change because of an alleged "revelation" from God.

I returned to my Christian roots and started attending a Baptist Church. I even kept in contact with a fellow Christian who encouraged me in the faith. We broke contact after awhile and I still continued to research the world's religions, cults and spiritual practices. Around September 2000, I was in at a low point in my life. It seemed that everyone that I trusted had turned their back on me.

So I retreated to the Church once again. It provided the comfort that I sought for.One sunday, when having nothing to do, Andromeda once again invited me to temple. I recieved a copy of the Fahamme Gospel. When I read it, I began to admire the nobility and goodness of the Fahamme teachings. They were non-judgmental and they extolled the virtues of pride in oneself, pride in one's race and faith in one's God. I found the Fahamme Gospel an inspiring work. There were even some things with in its pages that I agreed with. I still continued to cling to my Christianity,however. I even consulted those that were within the Christian faith to get advice from them to not go to Fahamme. I began to study with the Fahamme members on their study nights and book club nights.

Q. How did Fahamme help you?

A. Here is where I began getting facts and information in regards to Fahamme. I even began doing research on Fahamme related subjects. I began seeing parrallels between Jesus and Mary and Isis and Horus. I saw how the Jesus ressurection was nothing more than a copycat of Osiris' resurrection. This made me see that Fahamme had a great deal of validity in regards to history and science. Because of Fahamme I even learned the origins of the doctrine of hell and the doctrine of Satan. This put a damper on the Christian hell and the concept of salvation. I even saw how Fahamme aided me in my day to day life and I was not even a Fahamme. I began praying the prayers of Fahamme and I found that I was blessed by me praying those prayers. Everywhere I went connections were being made between what Fahamme was saying and how the course of my life was running. It was soon enough about December of 2000 that I requested to have a Fahamme Islam name. And on January of 2001, I officially became a Fahamme when I took on the name Adbu Ahmed-"one who is worthy of praise". Getting that name filled me up with pride and it gave me a sense of self-esteem and respect. Getting that name and Fahamme itself gave me a new lease on life.

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